Thursday, September 25, 2008

A rollercoaster ride....


This week, beginning from the weekend, has been a rollercoaster ride for me. Emotionally, it has been high, up to the sky, and down, beaten to the ground. Holiday, sickness, death, fighting an addiction, all within a space of five days. Some people might say, well, that is facts of life, just get on with it.....I am trying, and i am sure with the support of my friends including from FB, I will get through this.


It was a great holiday in Berlin. I had a great fun with my close friends. There were 10 of us: me, irish Andrew, Batch, Dan, english Ricky, Chris, australian Paul, belgian Darius, and canadian Jeff. I will tell more about the trip with pictures in my album.


Returning back from Berlin, I started to feel unwell. I have been feeling an extreme exhaustion for the past 4 days with pain and aches all over my body. It feels like I am carrying a block of concrete on my back or like I have just finished running a marathon. I can't do anything. Today is the worst. I lied in bed all day. Last night I couldn't sleep with stomach cramp. I felt so down. So many things I wanted to do today but the whole day was wasted trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I thought I had been having a flu but the feeling or symptoms like nothing I had before. Later this evening I found out actually I had been having side effects from the medication I had been taking for the past week. I am still not feeling right but I have decided to discontinue taking the tablet. I will tell you why I took this medication.Yes! tomorrow is the day of revelation! I hope you all ready!


After suffering from dementia for many years, my paternal grandmother passed away yesterday. I got the sad news from my younger sister, Midah, last night. Only yesterday she posted pictures of Atok (my grandma) which were taken 4 days ago. She looked so ill. As much as I am sad with her passing, at the same time I am relieved that she had been released from her suffering. For many years, her memory was fading away, for many months, she couldn't see, couldn't hear, for many weeks she had stopped eating. It was heartbreaking for my father, who was looking after her in her final years, to see her withering away. It has been hard for him. He, who previously buried 3 of his own children and a wife of 30 years, now has lost a mother and sister in the same year. This has reminded me of my own mortality....when and how, only God knows.


I promise I will reveal it all tomorrow!

4 comments:

Mr. Manager said...

Tomorrow katanya. Siap janji.

Ado?

Al-Razes said...

esok? janji??

~AqUnUbiEsEtiA~ said...

bang chik kenal ke si vern nie....

~AqUnUbiEsEtiA~ said...

atok meninggal org tak dapat blek... atok meninggal hari rabu... org dh beli tiket balek raye hari sabtu... khamis & jumaat ade klas... so terpakse la jgk blek hari sabtu... mmg tak dpt blek tgk atok... org yang dok kuantan pon tak dapat blek... inikan pulak bang cik yang dok nun jauh di sana...